long time no post…

It has been a while. So much living has happened since the last time that I have posted and trust me there have been great times and times that have been done right awful.

I haven’t posted in a while because I honestly thought, “who would want to hear my nonsense,” but then I started this blog knowing that someone out there might be going through something similar. Thus, here we are. Posting for the first time in forever. *que the Frozen song*

In all seriousness, I finished my first semester of college and learned on my check out day that I would be either getting my own room next semester, or a new roommate. It wasn’t a pleasant surprise at all trust me so don’t think that I’m “soooo” lucky because it hurt, but I’m thinking of more positives in my life. I tell you this because it made me want to be better than I ever thought prior.

The one thing that I have come out of the semester with is knowing that I am going to go into next semester proving everyone that doubts me right now wrong. I know I’m stronger than I and A LOT of people think. Having people to prove wrong only makes me want to strive harder and work harder to make myself mentally, physically, and emotionally healthier. Honestly, I think that makes so many people that are in a similar spot like me want to work harder and strive more. Once you have people that think you’re going to fail, or are jealous of you and are trying to make you fail; you only want to work harder. You will always have people that don’t want you to achieve anything and only want you to fail and you HAVE to prove them wrong. You’re stronger that you think you are. I’m stronger than I think I am. We’re ALL stronger than we think we are.

It’s easy to think this and understand it, but actually believing it and trusting it is a totally different story. I know that it’s hard to understand why it feels like life is just picking on you to destroy at the time, but once you get through it you’re stronger. Sometimes you realize that the people you thought were going to be there for you and are your “person” actually aren’t, and that’s okay. The best advice I’ve ever been given is that, “no one can take away your education and the support that you have for yourself.”

Education is something that I love. So much in fact I’m getting a degree to teach little ones in the future. Making an impact at a young age is monumental and honestly helps understanding that you can always depend on yourself. You can because you have knowledge that no one can take away from you. At the end of the day your significant other, friends, roommates, anyone might not be there but you’re always going to be there for yourself.

This month I have off for Christmas is going to be a time of reflection and growth. I’m going to be a better person going back to college than I was when I left it. Having this goal is something that will easily change my life. It’ll be hard, but in the end I’ll thank myself for it. Life’s hard, but you’re stronger than you think.