9 things I’ve learned

Earlier this month I turned the grand old 19.  With that comes nothing but good memories that I shared with some of my closest friends that I’ve made since being at college. Over the years though, I have felt like I have learned a thing or two from either just living or my mom, so here are 9 things that I have learned in 19 years.

1. DONT SWEAT THE SMALL THINGS

Okay. Okay. I know that is something that I still do, but I would like to believe that it is something that I don’t do as often and when I do not to let it affect me for a long period of time. The small things that we often sweat about in ten years will be something that doesn’t even cross our minds.

2. FIND JOY IN EVERYDAY 

Being someone that suffers from pretty bad anxiety and depression this is something that I have to remember to do daily and sometimes even multiple times a day. It’s extremely easy for me to just lay in my bed and not speak to anyone, but living in the real world I cannot simply do that.

3. FIND YOUR “PEOPLE”/”PERSON”

This is something that can be taken many ways, but the way I am talking about isn’t romantic. It’s that person that you know that you can go to and they will always be there to talk to you. Finding that person or that group of people is hard trust me, but once you do it’s so worth it.

4. DON’T BE SO HARD ON YOURSELF 

Again this is something that I am so bad at doing myself, but want to believe that I don’t do it as often. I do. Daily. I’m human I pick myself apart, but I try to start every day with a smile. I read somewhere once that if you look at yourself in the mirror and smile once you wake up you’re more likely to have a better day.

5. FIND SOMETHING THAT YOU LOVE

This is something that I only recently learned that helps me. Finding that one thing you just love unconditionally that will always be there is so helpful in my low days. It can be your pet, an animal, a certain shirt, or whatever. Personally, the thing I love are sloths. Anytime I look at them I instantly become so happy.

6. APPRECIATE THE LITTLE THINGS

The little things in life are things that sometimes I and many others overlook, but taking the time to stop and take them in and look at them is something that really makes a difference. Sometimes for me, it can be as simple as using a certain mug in the mornings, or someone letting me over when I miss my turn.

7. TAKE TIME FOR YOURSELF

PUT. YOURSELF. FIRST. I know life is busy and you don’t want to do it, but putting yourself first and doing life for yourself sometimes is the best thing that you can do. Remember you cannot give it you’re all if you’re not giving yourself your all.

8. DON’T SPEW HATE

Spewing hate everywhere is something that not only is extremely to do, but it is so toxic for you to do. Doing that puts hate in your mind and makes you not want to think happy or give happy vibes off.

9. BE YOU

Be you. Be the person that when you wake up in the mornings you don’t hate. Be someone that you’re proud to tell your grandma about. The kind of person that you would want your future kids to be friends with. Stay true to how you know you are and don’t change to fit the social norms. It’s never worth it. Trust me.

XOXO Hannah Jane

The Demons In Your Closet

The demons in your closet that hide and lurk in the shadows. They represent your past. The scary the bad and the down right ugly. They stay there and haunt you in a way that ruin everything good in your life. They love to watch you fail and when you hurt they thrive. Recently my demons in my closet have come out into full view. With recent events in life the demons that I’ve hidden for so long have come and proved themselves right again. They’ve made me push away the one I love and made me lose them forever. You see the issue that we never seem to get past is that these demons are a part of you, but you try to hide them and want them to go away, but the only way that they can leave is if you speak about them and shed light on the things that hurt and bother you. Having them lurk in the shadows of your life constantly can ruin you as a human being. You have one life and you need to live it to the fullest in every way possible. We all have these demons some worse than others, but they’re always with us. They’ve shaped us into the people that we are. Personally mine have shaped me into someone that pushes everyone away. Once I begin to feel close and know that I can depend on someone I push them away and want them to leave. Then they do leave and I realize I never wanted this to happen. I never want to push the ones I love away, but I still manage to do so in some way. Is the wrong of me to do? No. Is it healthy for me or anyone to do? No. Is it something that can change over night? No. Can you make this better? Yes. The only way to make this better is that you have to confront them and take them head on. Don’t let them hold you back. History won’t repeat itself if you don’t let it. Answer questions, keep your temper neutral, pray hard, love even harder. Don’t let the demons in your closet hold you back. Take them head on and show them you can take them on and will.